I guess this means we're okay, right?

[forever_wandering]

日本語の版：http://ameblo.jp/eternalkirichan/entry-11209770029.html

We had decided a few days before on meeting at Roppongi at 18:00. Even though he had been mad at me, and was probably even more annoyed with me for not calling him as I had been instructed, I assume our plans still stand. I shower, change, then head off to meet him. Upon reaching Ueno Station, I get a message from M-san,*: You didn't call me. I'll see you at 20:00 instead. What? 20:00?! What in hell was I supposed to do for two hours?! "That's fine. I'll wait for you," I reply, which sparks a small argument. He blames my not calling him for his being late and I apologize but argue that my call had nothing to do with our pre-arranged meeting. He tells me he's on his way and we end up meeting only half an hour behind schedule. 

We argue as we walk. He's genuinely annoyed that I hadn't called, and I'm genuinely annoyed that he was acting so...possessive. He was annoyed that I had been hanging out with another guy, drinking with another guy. I assure him that nothing had happened and that T-san* was no more than a friend. "That kind of behavior.." he begins to tell me, but then says nothing more. What behavior? My behavior? Sorry, but what had I done wrong? "I don't like it." He finishes off, rounding a corner. "So, where do we go from here?" I ask, wondering if we'd be parting ways or not. "Roppongi Hills. You know Mori tower?" He asks back, and of course, I know. I remind him that I'm afraid of heights, which seems to bring a smile to his face. Damn him. I smile back and the tension disappears. 

The elevator doors opened and as we stepped out on to the deck, we were greeted by a beautiful night view of the area, Tokyo Tower glowing majestically. I'm both amazed and terrified at the same time.  He asks me if I want to take a picture. "Uhh...." I answer, holding on to the rail. Actually, I'm fine right here, clinging to this rail, I think to myself, but find myself walking with him in the direction of the designated photographer positioned on deck.  Once our picture is taken, we begin to walk around deck, trying to identify different landmarks.

"And that area over there is...." M-san* peers at a map, trying to figure out what he was looking at. "That's Shibuya," I finish, standing next to him. He asks me how I know. "I'm awesome," I answer.  

"Okay then. So." He points in another direction, "That is....hm."  I tell him that that area is also Shibuya. It's all Shibuya. Everything in Sight is Shibuya. "Trust me, I know these things." I assure him. We laugh and continue looking around.

He starts staring at another map and as he does so, I stare at him. He had me figured out, but he was still a mystery to me. I stare so intently that I fail to notice he's now looking at me instead of at the map. He snaps his fingers in my face, "Is that ok?" My blank stare tells him he needs to repeat his question. "I know you have to go to Kansai but I wanna see you one more time before you go home, ok?" 

I agree to meet him again and promise I'll call him from Kansai. He gives me a skeptical look. I laugh. "I will!" I assure him, "I swear I'll call you."

But did I? 

★★★

I am loving LJ's new "Scheduled entries" feature! It really is speeding up the posting process. I can type up all my entries ahead of time then just walk away.

In other news, Operation "Instead of losing weight, focus on living a healthier lifestyle" is going very well. I haven't stepped on the scale just yet to see if I've actually lost any weight, but I can see a difference when I look at pictures most importantly, I feel the difference.  Is anyone else working on losing weight? If so, how do you keep motivated? How do you measure your progress?  I only have 5 more kilos to lose in order to meet my final goal, but I've read that the last 5 are always the hardest.  I'm looking for creative ways to keep myself motivated! 9 months to lose 5 kilos for a bit day! MOTIVATE ME LJ♥

Comments

[jimjamjenny.livejournal.com]

Reading this is like reading a proper novel or something, hehe! I'm enjoying it :)

I'm trying to lose weight at the moment! My mum is as well, so we've been emailing each other to try to keep our motivation up. I'm having a pretty bad week though. I've heard that actually taking measurements of your waist, thighs, upper arms etc is better than weighing yourself, as your weight can be affected by loads of things, and can go up and down a bit unpredictably even if you've definitely lost weight, whereas taking body measurements gives you a much more realistic impression of how your body is changing. It also means that if you gain muscle but lose fat you'll be able to see the difference, whereas you might on the scales.

I think that one way to keep your motivation up is to vary what you're doing a lot - don't stick to just one form of exercise, and try to cook a really wide range of healthy food, rather than just sticking to the same kind of thing, so you don't get bored.

[kurikuribebi]

I'm glad you're enjoying it! As I told someone else, I chose to write it this way so that when I looked back on it, it would feel like I was reading an actual romance story too =)

Oh it's cool that you and your mom do that! What do you guys do when both of you lose motivation at the same time?

I think measurements might be a better way for me to go. My scale doesn't show me any change, but M-san and I are definitely seeing changes. I haven't been recording measurements but I know they've been changing since my clothes are starting to fit differently.

[jimjamjenny.livejournal.com]

So far only one of us has lost motivation at a time, so I don't know what we'll do when that happens! Probably try to figure out why we've lost motivation, hehe.

Noticing how clothes fit differently is always good :D Yay!

[kurikuribebi]

I used to have that problem but I forced myself to find new hobbies. I would also drink water before a meal and after a meal so that even if I wanted to eat out of boredom, I'd be too full. Sometimes, if I was eating something junky, I'd eat in front of a mirror, and it would make me feel bad enough to eat only half.

The fit of my clothes is what I want to go by these days. So I hope my motivation doesn't fail.

[tristine-t.livejournal.com]

Ah! Your entries are so interesting. =]
I am supposedly working on losing weight too. Mostly I just go hiking a lot. There are always new things to see here.
Telling myself I need to work out never works for me. I either have to do it everyday, habitually, or it has to be a fun activity... like hiking. XD

[kurikuribebi]

Thanks so much for your compliment! I try to keep it interesting so that when I look back on my blog in a few years, I'll feel like I'm reading someone else's life.

Looking at the pictures you've posted so far, I'd say hiking is great! You have such great sights and landscapes to walk through. I've also heard that hiking is great because you shift through different types of terrains, which is apparently great for your legs.

[tristine-t.livejournal.com]

You are very welcome. :D And that is really cool.

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[sillysoul.livejournal.com]

Despite your disagreements it sounds like you two had a great time :-) Reading your journal really makes me wanna fulfill my childhood dream of going to Japan this very second!

I've lost over ten kilos within last two years and at one point I was starting to get really really skinny. Now I've gained some kilos and I can see it from my image, and sometimes I feel very bad about it. Instead of looking at the scale I decided that it's better to look at my mirror image only, 'cos in the end your weight doesn't tell much about your size. I always get motivated by doing an exercise that I really like. Jogging isn't really my thing, neither is going to the gym, so I mainly lost all that weight by randomly dancing in my room (when no one was looking) and taking zumba lessons :-) So I gotta agree with all those zumba ads that losing weight can actually be fun!

[kurikuribebi]

Thanks for your comment, and I'm glad I could make you feel that way! You really should visit Japan at least once =)

Well, at one point I had reached my dream weight, but I had everyone telling me left and right that I looked really sick, so I started putting weight back on. I had planned on stopping at a certain weight, but I stopped paying attention and gained a little more than I meant to.

Yeah, I guess you're right! The last time I stepped on the scale, I had gained two pounds, but while I was walking around with M-san last week, I ended up having to borrow a belt to keep my pants on! So I guess it is better to go by the clothes and what you can see.

Someone else recommended Zumba as well. I wonder if that would work well for me though, since I'm always dancing as it is.

[sillysoul.livejournal.com]

I didn't want to look sick either and when my parents started to get concerned I think I gained all those kilos 'unconsciously'... 'Cos at the moment I don't feel like I've done anything different from usual to gain weight. Back in the day I used to count calories and calculate my BMR daily, so I'm glad I got rid of that habit (THAT was sick!). But the next time I'm in my dream weight again I won't care what others say to me :-)

You should definitely try zumba! It literally does magic to your belly! :-) I'm also dancing all the time and it's been my habit for years now. I think I've lost a bit of weight by listening to music on my headphones and just dancing away in front of the mirror. Sometimes I get really carried away and start making my own choreographies and then suddenly I realize that I've danced for two hours!

[kurikuribebi]

I never did any of that, but I ran every day and had to walk to and from campus...then to and from the club to the train..and to and from... well, I did a lot of walking.
I have a new goal weight now. Looking at my pictures from back then, I unfortunately have to agree with my friends and teachers--I looked sick. Now that I have this new goal though, I'm going to work towards it and keep that one. I've consulted a few doctors and this new weight should be ok.


Ahahahah! I do that too! I feel like I'm a total pop star.

[raggawrites.livejournal.com]

I think the best way to lose weight is to do it in a way that it isn't a chore... I've done gyms, i've tried running and it's just, meh, not for me really.

What I have started doing is working out with friends. We've been dancing and doing boxercise once a week... dancing is awesome (latin dancing: zumba for now and in April I will add to that by doing Reggaeton.

[kurikuribebi]

You're the second person to mention Zumba to me. I like to dance in my room but aside from that, I'm pretty much all danced out. I used to go clubbing on a daily basis to dance. At family reunions, my aunts and uncles always bust out the salsa and we dance up a storm.

Reggaeton! Good dancing! That's all we ever danced in school when we were growing up.It's not at all hard. You'll love it!