PIECES OF ME
Oct. 29th, 2012 11:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
forever_wandering
My birthday was pleasantly simple and relaxing. I enjoyed it very much. Instead of getting presents, I asked people to save their money for a moment when I needed something. Everyone was surprised I didn't want to be showered in gifts, but you know, I have everything I want and need at the moment. Why be greedy?
Anyway, So, why am I sad? I had an appointment today and it turns out I'm going to need surgery. My blood is infected with a bacteria that is slowly eating at my bones. The surgery can't repair the damage already done, but it will kill the bacteria. It requires three treatments and the entire process costs about $2,000, which isn't in my budget right now. The seriousness of the situation didn't hit me until I was shown my X-rays, and honestly, I'm a bit scared.
Not to mention, angry. Things were finally moving in the direction I wanted and this gets thrown at me? Just yesterday I made a huge declaration on facebook about how I was going to many this year--my 24th year--my best and happiest year, about how I would accomplish all my goals and become someone I can be proud of, and now I get this giant kick in the face. Of course, I can still work hard and do what I'd like to do, but appointments and treatments and Specialist meetings are only going to delay things.
Anyway, So, why am I sad? I had an appointment today and it turns out I'm going to need surgery. My blood is infected with a bacteria that is slowly eating at my bones. The surgery can't repair the damage already done, but it will kill the bacteria. It requires three treatments and the entire process costs about $2,000, which isn't in my budget right now. The seriousness of the situation didn't hit me until I was shown my X-rays, and honestly, I'm a bit scared.
Not to mention, angry. Things were finally moving in the direction I wanted and this gets thrown at me? Just yesterday I made a huge declaration on facebook about how I was going to many this year--my 24th year--my best and happiest year, about how I would accomplish all my goals and become someone I can be proud of, and now I get this giant kick in the face. Of course, I can still work hard and do what I'd like to do, but appointments and treatments and Specialist meetings are only going to delay things.
NOW THAT THE NEGATIVITY IS OUT OF MY SYSTEM...!!
I'm looking forward to being in Tokyo again, even if it's only for a short time. I love my Osaka life, but I've missed my Tokyo friends dearly. Part of me is really thinking about moving over to Tokyo, permanently. I mean, I have my Osaka friends and I love them, but I have better relationships with my Tokyo folk. Yeeees, I can take the bus or the shinkansen to see them, but week after week? It starts adding up....
A lot of my friends that had gone abroad to study are returning to Japan, so we plan on having one big happy reuinion. Some are Osaka bound, while others are Tokyo bound, so we might all meet up in Shizuoka, since it's the middle ground. Not 100% sure yet, but looking forward to it.
I don't know if I've lost weight since I don't have a scale anymore, but I'm definitely looking more trimmed! I've had to abandon a lot of my remaining clothes and start wearing the clothes my younger sister left behind. So I'm wearing...hand me ups? I only want to take a few things from here, so I hope all my old things still fit!
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Date: 2012-10-31 08:02 pm (UTC)I'm definitely planning a high calcium diet!