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forever_wanderingIndependence Day was pretty fun. We had free tickets, so we decided to go to Busch Gardens to see their fireworks display. In the end they were canceled due to horrible weather, but I got to spend time with my family (minus my sister, who is still living in Hawaii). My brother left for Alaska yesterday morning and won't be coming back to Florida until December. Depending on when he comes, I might already be back in Japan, so who knows when we'll get the chance to take another 4-family member photo.
Since my brother is gone now, I can go back to following a routine. Most people don't believe me when I say this but I actually have really low self-esteem. There isn't a single thing I would change in the way I've lived my life. I have no regrets when it comes to that. But there are many things I want to change in myself and I always try to do so much at once that I burn out.
So this is it. This is a clean slate. I'm focusing on two and only two goals for the next year (Today - July 5, 2013).
1. LOSE 10KG & PRACTICE
NATURAL BEAUTY
The trouble with being short is that it shows. Short people just can't hide their weight. Tall people are so lucky! I was advised against losing more than 5kg by my doctor but I want to try to lose 10kg in a healthy fashion.
The last time I was only around 2kg away from meeting my goal, everyone told me I looked like a corpse. Obviously, I don't want to look like that. I want to lose weight but maintain a feminine body.
In order to achieve my goal, I need an effective work out regimen. I want to work harder, not longer, so I plan on creating a plan around my strengths and weaknesses.
On top of that, I want to improve my natural appearance. I depend a lot on things like make up, hair irons, heels and cute outfits to make me feel pretty. I want to have that same confidence when I'm not wearing make up or dressing up in nice clothes.
2. STUDY SERIOUSLY AND
TAKE A JLPT.
I study Japanese a lot. However, I do it by watching dramas, listening to music and talking to friends. My Japanese is incredibly casual, but I get by just fine on my own in Japan. However, I've always felt inferior to those who have had the opportunity to take and learn through formal classes. I always say that I'm going to take the JLPT just to see where I am compared to other students, but I always chicken out. I'm not going to do that any more.
Next year, I will definitely take the JLPT. Until then, I will study as much as possible. If I can, I'll update my Japanese blog daily. I'm also thinking it would be a good idea to find a study partner who is also learning Japanese, so that we can study together via voice chat or cam.
Lets see if I can maintain these goals =)
I chose to write about this today because it's Tanabata! While I was cleaning out my parent's book shelf, I came across a wish I had sent them my first year abroad, which was more than two years ago. My wish was to have more confidence in myself. This year will be four years since that day and I still have the same wish.
Ladies and gentlemen, please inspire me with your wishes and dreams!
Since my brother is gone now, I can go back to following a routine. Most people don't believe me when I say this but I actually have really low self-esteem. There isn't a single thing I would change in the way I've lived my life. I have no regrets when it comes to that. But there are many things I want to change in myself and I always try to do so much at once that I burn out.
So this is it. This is a clean slate. I'm focusing on two and only two goals for the next year (Today - July 5, 2013).
1. LOSE 10KG & PRACTICENATURAL BEAUTY
The trouble with being short is that it shows. Short people just can't hide their weight. Tall people are so lucky! I was advised against losing more than 5kg by my doctor but I want to try to lose 10kg in a healthy fashion.
The last time I was only around 2kg away from meeting my goal, everyone told me I looked like a corpse. Obviously, I don't want to look like that. I want to lose weight but maintain a feminine body.
In order to achieve my goal, I need an effective work out regimen. I want to work harder, not longer, so I plan on creating a plan around my strengths and weaknesses.
On top of that, I want to improve my natural appearance. I depend a lot on things like make up, hair irons, heels and cute outfits to make me feel pretty. I want to have that same confidence when I'm not wearing make up or dressing up in nice clothes.
2. STUDY SERIOUSLY AND
TAKE A JLPT.
I study Japanese a lot. However, I do it by watching dramas, listening to music and talking to friends. My Japanese is incredibly casual, but I get by just fine on my own in Japan. However, I've always felt inferior to those who have had the opportunity to take and learn through formal classes. I always say that I'm going to take the JLPT just to see where I am compared to other students, but I always chicken out. I'm not going to do that any more.
Next year, I will definitely take the JLPT. Until then, I will study as much as possible. If I can, I'll update my Japanese blog daily. I'm also thinking it would be a good idea to find a study partner who is also learning Japanese, so that we can study together via voice chat or cam.
Lets see if I can maintain these goals =)
I chose to write about this today because it's Tanabata! While I was cleaning out my parent's book shelf, I came across a wish I had sent them my first year abroad, which was more than two years ago. My wish was to have more confidence in myself. This year will be four years since that day and I still have the same wish.
Ladies and gentlemen, please inspire me with your wishes and dreams!
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Date: 2012-07-06 08:10 pm (UTC)And actually, as many posittives being tall has it still has a few bad qualities to it. I'm about 175 cm, I used to grow about 10 cm each year until I was 16 yrs old - thanks to that I'm missing calcium and other important stuff for my bones, thanks to which I have scoliosis since I was very young. I was always way taller then the rest of my playmates and classmates in kindergarden and later in school thanks to which I've been called names and have been bullied. At the age of 14 I've been taller then most of my teachers and the 1st - 4th grades always greeted me in the halls as a teacher (all my life I've been feeling old!) and even now, when I finally stoped growing, I'm still taller than most of the guys of my age (or any other age, for that matter!) - the only guys that I pretty much feel that "oh yeah, he's tall!" are those 2 m long dudes...
So, don't feel sad for being short if your only trouble is that you're weight is more seen. It's not worth the trouble ;)
And my wishes and dreams? Hmmm... I'd like to learn Latin when I'll have the money to buy the book for self-learners and a huge bunch of other stuff. :D
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Date: 2012-07-06 08:57 pm (UTC)Wow. 175cm? I want to say you're lucky. I think tall women are so beautiful. However, I can see how it was difficult for you growing up and I'm sorry people teased you that way >.<
Latin? Interesting! I don't know many people who study it because it's a dead language.