forever_wandering | Entries tagged with self-discovery

As I look over my planner to check what needs to be done today, I listen to the train pass by. On that train are people who get up earlier than I do--are way more productive than I, and it makes me feel lazy. I used to be that productive. I used to be up at 6am, ready to tackle the day....but lately, my feet don't touch the floor any earlier than 7AM.

So, maybe that's why my days feel so busy? It's not that I have more things to do compared to before. I just have less hours to do it in.

I really need to start getting up early again.

Lately, I've been going to bed completely exhausted, and by that I mean my eyes are closed and I'm knocked out before my head even hits the pillow. When I wake up though, I always feel refreshed. They say that those who work hard often live longer. I wonder if there is any truth to that.

In other news:
I feel like I'm being reborn. Recently, I started reading more books in Spanish, listening to Latin music and just the other night, we went out to a Salsa club. Never in a million years did I expect to feel this good socializing with people who come from my same background. Could it be that blending in to a culture for Take's sake forced me to forget my own, which was why I felt so miserable with my life? Who knows....
But what I do know is that lately, when I look in a mirror, I don't find myself thinking "Ah, I need to straighten my hair. Why is my skin this tan?" I find myself feeling happy with my wild hair, my tanned skin, these curves I used to hide so much...