forever_wandering: (PENSITIVE)
As I look over my planner to check what needs to be done today, I listen to the train pass by. On that train are people who get up earlier than I do--are way more productive than I, and it makes me feel lazy. I used to be that productive. I used to be up at 6am, ready to tackle the day....but lately, my feet don't touch the floor any earlier than  7AM. 

So, maybe that's why my days feel so busy? It's not that I have more things to do compared to before. I just have less hours to do it in. 

I really need to start getting up early again.


Lately, I've been going to bed completely exhausted, and by that I mean my eyes are closed and I'm knocked out before my head even hits the pillow. When I wake up though, I always feel refreshed. They say that those who work hard often live longer. I wonder if there is any truth to that. 

In other news: 
I feel like I'm being reborn. Recently, I started reading more books in Spanish, listening to Latin music and just the other night, we went out to a Salsa club. Never in a million years did I expect to feel this good socializing with people who come from my same background.  Could it be that blending in to a culture for Take's sake forced me to forget my own, which was why I felt so miserable with my life? Who knows.... 
But what I do know is that lately, when I look in a mirror, I don't find myself thinking "Ah, I need to straighten my hair. Why is my skin this tan?" I find myself feeling happy with my wild hair, my tanned skin, these curves I used to hide so much...

It's time to start embracing the family and culture I was born in to. 




"An ugly duckling growing out of her feathers."

Hello. I'm Zia, and this is most obviously my journal. I write about my life between Japan and the US, and all the adventures I find myself in. People often say they are envious of the life I seem to live, but the truth is, I feel a little unsatisfied with it myself, so I've decided to do something about it--to find what really makes me happy. Hopefully by documenting my life, I can figure out where I need to be heading. This journal is my way of opening my world to those around me in hopes of meeting people searching for the same thing or encountering people who have already gone through this kind of struggle. 

Back in my high school days, I used to be a bit of a nerd. I was really in to comic books of all kinds, action figures...all that jazz.  These days, though my interest in comic books re-surfaces every so often, I'm very much more in to things like fashion, dance, music, travel, tea, baking, writing letters, photography, animals and fitness. I'm a straight shooter--meaning I do not (or rather, can not?) lie. Keeping up with lies is too much trouble. 

Anyway, there is more information about me on my profile. Feel free to take a look there or catch me on another site★


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