Back to Tokyo
Dec. 10th, 2012 04:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I've fallen in love with Tokyo all over again and I regret not having experienced more of it when I lived here as a student. I guess when you live somewhere, you don't really think to do touristy things. I don't want to have the same regret about Osaka, so as soon as I get home, I'm tossing on my knee-high tube socks and fanny pack and heading out to explore the "right way," and until I return to Osaka, I plan on exploring Tokyo in the same way (though necessarily not the same fashion!)
In a a couple of days, I'll be jumping over to Magome(馬込) to stay with a friend and his family. I'm really looking forward to it since the last time I did a "home stay" was almost three years ago when I first moved to Japan, and even then, it was a small, three member family. I've never stayed with a five-member family, and it'll be interesting to see how they compare to mine!
Speaking of compare....
I had originally left Japan because things were getting out of control for me. After moving to Osaka to be with Take, things were great for a while, but things slowly started to go down hill. I had begun letting myself go because since "I already had a guy, there was no need to keep in shape." I gained back not only the weight I had lost, but an additional 2kilos (about four pounds), cut my hair off. and basically did nothing when I should have been job hunting. We'd fight about it constantly. He wanted to move in to a more serious relationship but I was too busy trying to cheat through my school work. Eventually, I did get disgusted with myself and found a part time job to help out around the apartment and pay for studies until I graduated. And it was some time after I graduated that I decided I needed to go home and really think things over, decide where I wanted my life to go.
Before heading back, I returned to Tokyo to say good-bye to a lot of my friends. This is one of the last pictures taken of me before my return to the US at the beginning of the year.
And this is the me that returned to Tokyo. Reading back on some of my entries, I feel like I've been a bit hard on myself. If I would have just looked myself in comparison to where I was instead of where I wanted to be, I'd realize that I've done--not to sound cocky--a great job. In 330 days, I was able to transform myself in to a slightly better person than I once was. There is still a lot of emotional work as well as physical work that needs to be done, but I'm not going to consider myself a failure any more.
(Face covered because my mom had caught me with food in my mouth! lol)
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Date: 2012-12-11 02:39 am (UTC)I found one thing very interesting where you said that you thought you don't have to take care of yourself anymore now that you have a guy.
It's never good if somebody does all these things just for a guy! You need to do them for yourself - and only for yourself!
I have the feeling that now that's exactly what you're doing, so that's good! ^^
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Date: 2012-12-27 12:10 am (UTC)Yes, definitely, I know that now! At the time, I was just a foolish kid who didn't really know what she was doing. I'd smack that girl if I could. LOL.
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Date: 2012-12-11 03:40 am (UTC)But when friends came to visit, you better believe that's all we did. So I definitely got my fill of tourist stuff, and I'm glad I did, because the moment my dad said "we're moving" it was that OMG NEED TO DO EVERYTHING epiphany and I had zero time to do any of it.
Good for you in thinking about your future and planning for it. I think a lot more people have to focus on their future than worry about their past.
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Date: 2012-12-11 10:51 am (UTC)I live at the heart of Europe, so even a city as small and uneventful as my university city is actually really pretty - but I walk around there every day so I hardly notice it anymore, ha ha.
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Date: 2012-12-27 12:15 am (UTC)That's why it's important to travel or take new routes to the same places.
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Date: 2012-12-11 12:58 pm (UTC)I should really start doing things in Tokyo! I seem to end up spending my free time the same way, which is nice, but boring, hehe.
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Date: 2012-12-27 12:23 am (UTC)Thank you!
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Date: 2012-12-27 12:30 am (UTC)But when I see myself in pictures, I can sort of begin to accept that I don't look so bad!
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Date: 2012-12-27 12:33 am (UTC)Now I just work.
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