Oct. 29th, 2012

forever_wandering: (TIRED)

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My birthday was pleasantly simple and relaxing. I enjoyed it very much. Instead of getting presents, I asked people to save their money for a moment when I needed something. Everyone was surprised I didn't want to be showered in gifts, but you know, I have everything I want and need at the moment. Why be greedy? 

Anyway, So, why am I sad? I had an appointment today and it turns out I'm going to need surgery. My blood is infected with a bacteria that is slowly eating at my bones. The surgery can't repair the damage already done, but it will kill the bacteria. It requires three treatments and the entire process costs about $2,000, which isn't in my budget right now. The seriousness of the situation didn't hit me until I was shown my X-rays, and honestly, I'm a bit scared. 

Not to mention, angry. Things were finally moving in the direction I wanted and this gets thrown at me? Just yesterday I made a huge declaration on facebook about how I was going to many this year--my 24th year--my best and happiest year, about how I would accomplish all my goals and become someone I can be proud of, and now I get this giant kick in the face.  Of course, I can still work hard and do what I'd like to do, but appointments and treatments and Specialist meetings are only going to delay things. 

Because I'm definitely going to kick this thing in the ass, so I don't want to stress over it too much. 

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I'm looking forward to being in Tokyo again, even if it's only for a short time. I love my Osaka life, but I've missed my Tokyo friends dearly. Part of me is really thinking about  moving over to Tokyo, permanently. I mean, I have my Osaka friends and I love them, but I have better relationships with my Tokyo folk. Yeeees, I can take the bus or the shinkansen to see them, but week after week? It starts adding up.... 

A lot of my friends that had gone abroad to study are returning to Japan, so we plan on having one big happy reuinion. Some are Osaka bound, while others are Tokyo bound, so we might all meet up in Shizuoka, since it's the middle ground. Not 100% sure yet, but looking forward to it. 

I don't know if I've lost weight since I don't have a scale anymore, but I'm definitely looking more trimmed! I've had to abandon a lot of my remaining clothes and start wearing the clothes my younger sister left behind. So I'm wearing...hand me ups? I only want to take a few things from here, so I hope all my old things still fit! 




"An ugly duckling growing out of her feathers."

Hello. I'm Zia, and this is most obviously my journal. I write about my life between Japan and the US, and all the adventures I find myself in. People often say they are envious of the life I seem to live, but the truth is, I feel a little unsatisfied with it myself, so I've decided to do something about it--to find what really makes me happy. Hopefully by documenting my life, I can figure out where I need to be heading. This journal is my way of opening my world to those around me in hopes of meeting people searching for the same thing or encountering people who have already gone through this kind of struggle. 

Back in my high school days, I used to be a bit of a nerd. I was really in to comic books of all kinds, action figures...all that jazz.  These days, though my interest in comic books re-surfaces every so often, I'm very much more in to things like fashion, dance, music, travel, tea, baking, writing letters, photography, animals and fitness. I'm a straight shooter--meaning I do not (or rather, can not?) lie. Keeping up with lies is too much trouble. 

Anyway, there is more information about me on my profile. Feel free to take a look there or catch me on another site★


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