Jun. 17th, 2012

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My family wanted to go out and east somewhere but because I'm still a little sick, they decided to order pizza and watch movies at home instead of going out. Honestly, I don't like pizza, but because they stayed home for me, I thought it would be rude of me to not eat with them. 

Anyway, starting tomorrow, I'll up my work out. 

Lately, my friends haven't been saying "Zia's Sexy," but instead, "Zia is a beautiful," which I absolutely love. Most girls I talk to always tell me I'm being stupid and that there is no real difference between "Sexy" and "Beautiful."  I think differently though. 
Of course, there's nothing wrong with being told you're sexy. However, every time I go to a club, Some random guy will approach me and say "You're sexy, let's go somewhere," and expect me to feel flattered simply because they can speak a few words in English or something. So for me, being told I'm sexy makes me feel weird. Whenever I'm told that I'm sexy, even if it is said genuinely, I feel like that person is only after one thing.... 

But whenever I'm told I'm beautiful, my heart skips a beat and I'm happy. 
Because I've lost some weight and my friends tell me I'm pretty, I now have the confidence to buy cuter clothes. I've been spending a lot of time browsing second hand shops for interesting pieces and I was able to put together two decent outfits for less than 25 USD. I'm a frequent shopper in second hand stores in Japan, but my image of second hand stores in the US had been quite...Poor. I had imagined racks filled with t-shirts and worn out clothes, but I couldn't have been any farther from the truth. I was surprised by a lot of the things I was able to find and I'm glad that I'll be able to expand my wardrobe at a decent price. 


I realized that I'm only 7 kilos away from my goal weight, but when I consulted my doctor, I was advised against losing more than 4 more kilos. According to my doctor, if I lost any more, it would be bad on my back. Being busty runs in both sides of my family. On my mother's side, I've had an aunt and a cousin have to get reduction surgery after losing weight, and on my fathers side I've had two aunts and a cousin have to get the same procedure done. So, it didn't surprise me when the doctor said it, but I still feel like I want to push forward to my main goal. 

I'll lose four as he suggests and then I'll make a final decision. 

When I was cleaning my room to make space for my new clothes, I found my cellphone from three years ago. I didn't know but there are still tons of pictures on it, but I don't know how to download those pictures on to my computer..... I can't find the cable or the card that came with the phone, so I'm not sure how else I can move them, but I definitely want to try. There are some great pictures saved on the phone. 


I got quite emotional when I was going through the pictures and messages since there are a lot of things from Take saved there. I also had a few laughs reading some of the messages from kaigaikou, reminding me of meetings and scolding me for the ones I've missed. 
UGH!!! How can I import everything from the phone to the computer?!?!?! 

Anyway, Ryo is an ordinary salary man who works behind a computer for a million hours a day, but on the weekends, he studies dance, which I really admire, since many of my friends give up their hobbies when they join the work force and basically become bums on their time off. Next Saturday, he has a dance performance and invited me to go but I can't. On that same day, I have plans to go with my Kouhai to Disney and since we've been trying to meet up for two months now, I simply can't call her and say "Sorry I can't make it this time either, I'm off to Shibuya!"

I really wanted to see him dance. He has this passion when he moves, which is why I enjoy it so much and record him every time he feels a beat. He promised to have a friend record it for me. That'll have to do. I told him I'd go to every performance once I get back. 

My best friend is going to be staying on Yokosuka for a few weeks doing training for the military. I've talked to some friends of mine about showing her around since I'll be busy road tripping with Kaz and Sho, but the minute I mention that she'll be on Yokosuka, they all tell me they're busy. It's getting annoying. When I moved to Japan, I lost touch with her because I got caught up with life there. I want her to enjoy it so that she understands just why I suddenly became so busy doing my own thing.  She doesn't speak any Japanese though and I want her to see places that aren't in guide books. R promised to help because she's my BFF, and I love him for that, but I can't expect him to care for her the entire time..... 




"An ugly duckling growing out of her feathers."

Hello. I'm Zia, and this is most obviously my journal. I write about my life between Japan and the US, and all the adventures I find myself in. People often say they are envious of the life I seem to live, but the truth is, I feel a little unsatisfied with it myself, so I've decided to do something about it--to find what really makes me happy. Hopefully by documenting my life, I can figure out where I need to be heading. This journal is my way of opening my world to those around me in hopes of meeting people searching for the same thing or encountering people who have already gone through this kind of struggle. 

Back in my high school days, I used to be a bit of a nerd. I was really in to comic books of all kinds, action figures...all that jazz.  These days, though my interest in comic books re-surfaces every so often, I'm very much more in to things like fashion, dance, music, travel, tea, baking, writing letters, photography, animals and fitness. I'm a straight shooter--meaning I do not (or rather, can not?) lie. Keeping up with lies is too much trouble. 

Anyway, there is more information about me on my profile. Feel free to take a look there or catch me on another site★


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